Granger+Snape by *RaelynKitty on deviantART

Took less than 10 minutes... Just needed to get away from my regular projects for a bit. :)

I look at this journal everyday before I hit my Friends tab, and everyday I say to myself "I should really update this darn thing."

So, finally, here I am.

Generally my life is rather boring, as far as my own opinion goes, so I never feel like blogging about how I slept in again, how I sat at my computer again, how I read another fan fiction again, and how I don't draw as much as I should. Personally, I wouldn't want to read about it.

I got All A's in my art classes this semester, along with a C+ or something in my 100w class, because the professor was a moron who enjoyed making us uncomfortable by talking about sex about the whole class period. Yaay.

This summer hasn't been all that productive or interesting. I've been fighting extreme boredom and a rather severe case of agoraphobia. The longer I stay inside, the more I never want to leave my house. It's kind of sad, actually. It seems sort of silly to be afraid to go outside, but then again, this is San Jose. *shrug*

I've also been getting depressed lately, and thinking pretty critically about myself and my life so far, but I think it's temporary and situational. I'm pretty sure my depression will dissolve with me going back to school. I really hate having nothing to do. I need direction in my life, and, sadly enough, I need people to tell me what to do (i.e. classes + homework) cause I can't seem to set my own goals. Seeing all my friends again will help greatly also. :)

My classes next semester are going to be absolutely crazy. I'm taking not one, not two, but THREE studio classes, which is usually only attempted by the insane and the overly zealous.

Intro to Maya
Animation 114 (Intermediate Animation)
Visual Development (Basically backgrounds and concept art)
History of Photography (as a filler for 12 units)

I picked all those classes to test myself. I'm fairly confident I can do it all, and do it well, but I just want to SEE. I've never pushed myself as hard as I'll have to this next semester, and after this lazy-ass summer, I'm very much looking forward to it.

My only worry is the Vis Dev is a night class, which means I'll have to take the public transit home at like 10pm twice a week... but I'm sure it will be fine... >_>.


I've been listening to Jenny Lewis a lot lately, to the point where I have one of her songs stuck in my head at all times.
I find it funny how some lyrics will hit you sometimes. I'm sure at least one person on my friends list knows what I'm talking about. ;) You can listen to a song for a long long time- on the radio or just part of an album you like, then one day you'll actually be in a spot to hear the LYRICS. And you stop and go "Wait... whoa..." And it just hits you, how much it connects. Just sort of sings right to your soul and you look up the lyrics online and you just sort of stare at them, read along with them. You just feel this connecting tug. Someone knew what you were feeling, and said it with the words and melody that you could never express yourself.

I love it.

Jenny Lewis and the Watson Twins - Happy

Not too bad this semester. :)


ART 112B - Drawing for Animation/Illustration . . . . . . . .  A

ART 113A -  Intermediate Illustration . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  B+

ENGL22 -  Science Fiction and Fantasy Literature . . . . B-

RTVF 82 - Introduction to Film . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . A


Only reason I got a B- in English 22 was because my teacher was a grammar nazi. I never knew I had such a feeble grasp of the english language.

Next semester is looking like fun:

ART 113b - Intermediate Project (Tidepool)

RTVF 181 - Modern Film Post WWII

TA 5 - Acting

112B - Drawing for Animation/Illustration (Advanced)


Fun stuff ya'll.

Doing a few quizzes cause I'm bored. D:

What's Your Best Quality? Your Result: Intelligence   Your best quality is intelligence! People like you because you are smart and always make the right decision. Your intelligence also helps you handle tough situations.
Loving
Ambitious
Personality
Sense of Humor
Out-Going
What's Your Best Quality? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

It sure ain't my outgoing-ness. :P

Which Positive Quality Are You? Your Result: Love   You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives--these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. "All you need is love."
Charity
Faith
Peace
Friendship
Courage
Which Positive Quality Are You? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I'm surprised Charity is way up there. I thought I was a big Grinch. :P

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract artsy people!   Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit 'different' from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)
You attract geeks!
You attract unstable people!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract models!
You attract rednecks!
What type of person do you attract? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Lawl.





Apparently, I only have 64% Personality. >_>

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)   You can never seem to calm down and always feel anxious for unknown reasons. You tend to not be able to concentrate and have headaches or other anxiety symptoms.
Paranoia
Manic Depressive
OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
What mental disorder do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Sounds about right, haha.

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The more I'm away from school/friends/homework/projects etc. The more I realize how much I hate being alone. *sigh* When's school start again? :D

In the meantime, never stop drawing! *DYNAMIC POSE*!

There's something about only having 1 hour of sleep in two days that really breaks down the emotional barriers one puts up.

Prepare yourself for a lot of emo whining. >_>


I have learned a few things during this huge painting project of mine:

-One: Sleep deprivation has made me become exceedingly selfish, to the point where I got upset/mopey/emo that my friends got higher grades than me. To me, feeling that envy is totally unacceptable, and I'm disgusted with myself for even feeling it. =/ I know it's a natural feeling after no sleep and working my ass off, but still. Unacceptable. My friends deserve nothing but the best at all they do.

-Two: Again, no sleep is probably playing a factor here in my emotional state, but I'm REALLY pissed off about getting a 90 on my project. I feel a few things about this. Firstly I'm sort of appalled that I'm whining about getting a 90. I mean really. Secondly, I worked my ass off! I deserve more than a 90! And Thirdly , I think I'm actually growing as a person/artist/student, because I used to not care at all. B's were ok material. I used to be happy with B's. Now I'm not even happy with low A's. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

-Three: Projects at the BFA level are REALLY going to suck if all I can produce is B level work. I'm going to be in for a world of emotional hurt. =/


On the upside, 90 is the highest grade I've gotten in the class so far. At least it didn't go down. :D

I just have one more final (Film,lol) then I'm free. I have a party tomorrow night, and an animation screening on the 19th, then it's Christmas-time, baby! Woo!

Well, it's late news, as usual, but I got in the Animation/Illustration program. Yaaay me!

Last night I was inducted into the order that is the BFA program at my school. I even had to sign a paper saying I shall be professional at all times and always act in the best interest of the program and whatnot. It was all very exciting. I really like the idea of the program being a very professional place to learn and work. Makes it seem all that more important, ya know?

But anyways, yeah. I'm in the program. I was a tad shocked to be honest.

It seems like a first for me to actually see the fruits of my labor. In the past, I've always had the notion that if I wasn't good at it right away, that I should just move on to something else. I always thought that there would be something that I'd be naturally amazing at, and never have to work very hard at anything. I just quit if I'm not good enough right away.

Well, I'll tell you now, that notion is a crock of shit. >_>

While you might be naturally inclined to be good at something, there is almost no chance that you'll be great at it right away. Instead of just moving on to something else, just find the thing you like to do, and keep at it. Work until you want to cry and throw things and stomp out and never come back.

But the difference there is *don't stomp out*. Or do, then come back. :P Hit that ceiling, digest that rat, and come back so much better for all your struggling.

Like my teacher Sheldon says, "The only way to fail is to quit."

Since I've been basically quitting everything that's been to hard in my life so far, I'm really happy to finally jump that hurdle. I'm growing as a person lulz.

This might be old hat for everyone else, but it's a new revelation for me. :P Don't quit? WHAT A CONCEPT, THAT.
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In other news, my man-creature has a job and is in the process of raking in dough as we speak. Huzzah!

Sooo, I turned in my Animation/Illustration portfolio on Thursday. This is by far one of the most important things in my life right now. That portfolio determines if I get in the Animation/Illustration BFA program. I've been working for over a year to make that portfolio, and now it comes down to waiting.

All my teachers and heads of the department went over them all today in a big conference. I was told that there were about 70 portfolios to go over, and, while there is no limit to how many people they let in per semester, they usually only take about 30 or so. One semester they only took 6. o_O

I'll know in a week if I get in or not. They post in on the office door like cheerleading tryouts or something, lol. Wish me luck! *rah rah rah!*


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Stolen from mariahgem ! I haven't done a meme in a while. ^^


* FOODOLOGY *
What is your salad dressing of choice?
That awesome ginger dressing from Benihana's.

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
Cheesecake Factory~!

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
Ginger Cat Cookies from Trader Joe's.

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
I like the "combo": Pepperoni, onion, pepper, sausage, olives. I also like Hawaiian though, or artichoke heart veggie pizza. I like pizza!

What do you like to put on your toast?
Marmalade and butter. I like it rich!

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* TECHNOLOGY *
What is your wallpaper on your computer?
This. I always try and keep some sort of digital composition/painting on my desktop, to remind me of what I want to do. :)

How many televisions are in your house?
Zero! I kinda missed it on election night. Watching historic speeches on youtube just isn't really the same.

What color cell phone do you have?
Black.

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* BIOLOGY *
Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right handed.

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Took out some stubborn baby teeth when they put on my braces. One of the teeth ended up being so stubborn that it took off some bone with it. >_>

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Groceries yesterday. Trying to carry them all up the stairs at once, like always. :P

Have you ever been knocked unconcious?
No, but I fainted watching terrible real videos of brain surgery in the 30's. I fell out of my desk and hit the one next to it and got a concussion. >_> Needless to say I was put off my psych class for a while.

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* BULLCRAPOLOGY *
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Never ever. I'm too much of a worry wart as is. Though, if I knew the date, would that make me *more* scared or *less* scared? Or would the fact that I knew cheapen the rest of my life, or enrich it? Oh man, don't get me thinking. >.<

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
I really like my name. It has a good story behind it. Most people usually end up calling me Laurie or Lauren though. Dunno why.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,000?
Burning throats are temporary things. I'm poor. You know though, it depends on the size of the bottle, and how hot the sauce is.

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* DUMBOLOGY *
How many pairs of flip-flops do you own?
3. One black that I almost never take off unless it's too cold. One white that I only wear if the black ones totally don't match (white skirt?). And shower flops. :D

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
I got pulled over only once, for coasting down a steep hill. 55 in a 35 zone. *sigh*

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Pixar's favorite employee.

Last person you talked to?
Shawn.

Last person you hugged?
Shawn!

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* FAVORITOLOGY *
Season?
Spring- the warm part.

Holiday?
Thanksgiving/Christmas. They're close enough together that I look forward to both equally. I always feel bad that I never have money for gifts though. :(

Day of the week?
Saturday.

Month
May. Semesters end, and its right about my favorite part of Spring. :)

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* CURRENTOLOGY *

First place you went today?
Art class! Up at 7:00AM, there by 8:00AM to get a seat, class at 8:45! I'm *so* glad it's just once a week.


What can you not wait to do?
I can't wait to see if I got in the BFA Program or not. >_>

What's the last movie you saw?
HAH, I just watched "A Goofy Movie" again. It's still one of my all-time favorites.

Do you smile often?
I like to think I do, but people seem to point out that I look mad a lot, so maybe I don't. o_O

Working on another rather big project for class has me and the crew pulling late hours at the art building. Running around with video cameras and skateboarding down the halls at 3 in the morning. Ah, it's good to be back.

I'm doing a small 8x8 rendering of a photograph in acrylics. Such a small thing compared to my huge reversal last semester, but it's basically the same lesson in seeing shapes and tone. Sitting hunched over, nose an inch from the paper for hours is a lot different than the 8 or more feet you needed for the reversal though. I think this is easier though. It's due Monday, bleh.

Having all this hunched-over time has given me a chance to go through some of my newly acquired music though, yay. :D

But oh! Phantom of the Opera is coming to San Fransisco! Hoo Hah!

I'm going. That's all there is to it. This musical and I must be together again.

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And last but not least, this guy is awesome. Matte painting is cool. I think this is what I want to do for a living. :D

Ok. I can't think of anything more to write. I'm tired. Back to work! *whipcrack*

~Desiderata



Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.


If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.


Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.


Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.


Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.



Strive to be happy.



--- Max Ehrmann, 1927


I'm sure this is on posters in every counselors and dentists office all over the world, but I've never seen it before in it's entirety. I like it. :D

Today I woke up feeling more like myself than I have in years and years. I won't go into why I suddenly feel this way, but man, it's great to be back. I'm energetic, I'm motivated, I'm content with myself, and best of all, I could care less about what people think about that. I feel amazing. :D

I iz reborn!

Something that's been stuck in my head for a few days. :) I love this movie so much. Wall-E, that is, not Hello Dolly. I had no idea that that was Michael Crawford, though now that I listen to it, it really couldn't be anyone else. Maybe I will watch Hello Dolly at some point. :) <3 Michael Crawford.



Quotes from Anais Nin:

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."

"We don't see things as they are, we see things as *we* are."

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."



Uh, that's about it. Here, have a kitty.

Usually makes you miss payments. lol

I haven't done that yet, but I'll be needing a job like, soonish to be able to keep living here. Joy of joys.

Keeping on the bright side of things though, I'm quite happy with the way my work has been turning out. I don't feel like I'm improving, but I can see a difference in my work, so I'll just go with it. I think I'm going to apply to the program this semester, if I can find out anything more about the due dates and pre-portfolio lookie-loo dates so I can get crackin'. I'm kind of excited. :D Knowing I'm going to go for it has really made me draw more. I need more portfolio pieces!

I've been really in the mood lately to listen to French alternative music. Just, cool music in French. It could be pop, it could be rock, it could be acoustic, just as long as it's good. Anyone know of any? I have no clue where to start looking. D:

Toodles~!

Or just about, tonight.

I downloaded a "questionable" file that was supposed to make my mac OS change colors and look pretty.

Instead it stopped every program from running. Including the System Preferences to uninstall it.

I was freaked out for about 20 minutes, before I remembered the wonderful wisdom of my grandfather. I imagine he'd tear me a new one for being so reckless about downloading random things on my mac, especially things I don't really have a clue about what they are or what they do.

I also remember him telling me all about "safe mode" :D

So I restarted, holding shift, got the foul program off my computer, and voila! No more bad program, computer works just fine.

Thanks Papa!

I'll certainly think twice before downloading strange programs.

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In other news, I'm working very hard. (No games at all, I swears!) I'm reading a lot for my English class, drawing my butt off for my other classes, and getting a very healthy appreciation for silent films, which I think my grandfather would also be happy to hear of. :P

I watched "The Gold Rush" with Charlie Chaplin the other night and man! I haven't laughed that hard in a LONG time! That kind of comedy totally transcends time. I love it! :D We're learning all about the silent era, and who invented what, and who got married to who, and whatnot. Very entertaining.

I've also found myself with access to a LOT of Science Fiction and Fantasy books. So I'll be reading a lot when I'm not drawing. :)

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In other, other news, it's really nice having friends. Friends that call you up at 10:30 at night wishing I was there hanging out with them. Having so many friends makes me realize exactly *how* shy and awkward I am around people. I can't help the fact that I really can't stay up all hours of the night and just hang, or stay out for like 15 hours out of the day. I'm a homebody. I get exhausted really easily when I'm outside and being social. I'm not sure why, it just really expends a lot of energy for me to talk to people and just be out there. I hope my friends know that it's nothing personal, and that I love them all. I hope they still like me anyways. :( And that they don't forget me. D:

I love school. I love the buildings, I love my friends, I love my teachers.

I love getting assignments, I love doing them, I love learning!

I HATE spending money. :(

250 dollars on supplies later, and I still need about 100 dollars or more on books.  Boo I say!

Thankfully, it's workable at the moment, so I don't need to stress too hard on it.

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My teachers this semester really make me realize how damn lucky us Animation students are. We're in the best place and time possible for our careers to take off, and I'm ultra excited.

I never wanna stop drawing! My salary depends on it! D:

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In other news, I have new arts up at my Deviant Art site. I'm too lazy to post it here.

Back in school!

It's really odd being so close to school, and yet still seemingly so far. It really was nice to live on campus. I sort of miss it. D:

I have a kitchen though, and a fridge and a microwave, and a shower and a bathroom that's all my own, so hah.

It still sucks that I can't just roll outta bed though and go down to the art lab and do projects. I still can, obviously. The school is only 15 minutes away, but it's still more of a hassle to wander around SJ at night. >_>

I like my classes though, but I'm dropping my creative writing class. It seemed like a really awesome class, but she's just asking too much for how much work I'm predicting for this semester. It just seems like too much work to do for a random class to take for fun. Sooo, I guess I'll take it some other time. Dropping that class somehow gets me only one class a day except for Wednesday, when I have 113a and Intro to Film. Despite only one class a day, I'm still at 12 units. xD I feel like I'm cheating, buahaha. It'll give me more time for projects at least. :)

I'm taking a Science Fiction and Fantasy lit class. The teacher seems so vivacious and happy and bouncy. I can tell she LOVES reading. She's like a female Giles or something, it's awesome. I'm going to look forward to that one. :)

And, as usual, I have to watch out for my art class and hope I don't "get under the ball". :P

Wish me luck! Woo!

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And on a final random note, this is the sexiest, hottest song/imagery ever. The looks they give each other, the fact that there's nothing the people backstage can do, and Christine is totally at the mercy of the Phantom. He still has all the power, and oh man, you KNOW Christine can feel it. :P




The movie should have ended there. >_> Boo Raoul. Go cry your man tears and leave Christine and Erik alone.

I can't *wait* for classes to start up again. I'm losing my mind over here.

Summer is all well and good, but my god, it's long. @_@ I need some structure in my life!

Aside from imminent money issues, my life's pretty good right now. Aside from the bored out of my freaking skull thing. I mostly just spend my days reading or dabbling in little games here and there; Guild Wars, Secret of the Solstice, and clicking around Gaia for golds. I'm on the third book of the Abhorsen Trilogy by Garth Nix. Really awesome books, imo. Quite reminiscent of my lovely Tamora Pierce books, but aimed at an older audience.

I'm reading these cause I remembered I had a huge library at my fingertips. :D It has alleviated my boredom to a point. There is a point in which you seriously just can't read anymore. Though I can get a good 12 hours in a day, if the book lasts that long. ;) The good ol' MLK library also has an "e-book" section, where you can download temporary adobe reader files of whole books! While it's not really as convenient as having a book in your hands, it's still better than no book at all.

I'm still not drawing as much as I should, but I'm an avid reader of the Gurney Journey, so I get at least *some* intelligent art exposure every day. I have a feeling that will pick up tremendously with school starting. :P Aside from the art classes I'm taking, I have a tendency to do my best concepts, drawings and ideas when I'm supposed to be doing something else... like listening to English lectures.

I also have a very important entry for the HP Art Project that's due on the 30th. I plan to work on it this week mostly, cause I'll be busy when school starts. I got Book 4, Chapter 10. The chapter that Ron gets his dress robes. :P

In other news, I've been having fun with my MacSaber program. Being able to turn your MacBook into a lightsaber is <3. Being careful not to drop it of course. >_> They also have made something called "SmackBook" where you can just lightly tap the side of the screen and it will swap windows. It takes a little bit of file hacking + downloading + reading up on it to get it to work though, and I haven't gotten around to it. But it sounds cool!

Alright, going out for a drive for now. Toodles!

I'm going to attempt to vent some of the struggles I've been having over the past few months. Please do forgive me if I sound like I'm whining, or complaining being emo or whatever. This is *my* blog, and if you don't like it, the back button is right there. I'm writing this post more as a mental check up than anything.

So I haven't been drawing at all this summer break, and I've been trying to find out why. Drawing/concept art/background art is what I want to do for a living. I really enjoy studying drawing, and painting (from what I've done) and the CG art I've done. I'm trying to break into an amazing art program that will basically give me all that I desire if I work hard enough for it. I have amazing, wonderful friends who never give up and are always trying to encourage themselves and those around them to draw more. I'm sitting here in the most opportune place to get my career started, and I'm frozen. Why? I feel like I'm just sort of sitting on the diving board, knowing I have to jump off, *wanting* to jump off, but I can't.

Here's a few ideas I've been stewing around.

In this industry, you have to work your ass off if you want to be anything. You have to work your ass off times 100 if you want to be anything *good*.

I've never worked my ass off for anything. The one exception being a few projects last year in school. It's easy working my ass off for a project that isn't mine. There's a solid deadline, and students/teachers who are awaiting your work. It's easy to do a project for someone else.

When it comes to me though, I never follow through with any of *my* goals. I think it might be a self esteem issue more than anything. I've had this issue all through life, that I never put my heart and soul into a project, or worked my ass off on it, just in case people didn't like it, or it failed as an art/paper/project/whatever. Half-assing something, you can kind of reassure yourself or others (oh, well, I didnt really work that hard on it anyways) and shrug it off. When you put your all into something, it HURTS to get knocked down. I think ultimately, that's what's keeping me from drawing and improving. Besides the little voice in my head telling me that no amount of work is going to make me any better as an artist. I really hate that little voice.

The kicker is, to make it in this industry, you *have* to do it for yourself, first and foremost. *Then* for the people you work for. The only way you'll keep the drive and motivation to stay afloat and keep your talent strong is if you have the personal motive to keep improving, and getting better.

I don't think I have any of that floating around.

It helps having my friends around to motivate me. Cause I sure can't do it myself. I need to fix this. I miss you guys. :(

Bottom line: It's easy to draw when it's needed. It's ass to try and motivate myself to draw to improve.


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On another fun note, with bills and rent, I have about 10 dollars to last me till the schools grant check on the week of the 25th. This oughta be a fun month. :P

So here I am, writing from my new apartment in San Jose.

I really do love it here. We get an amazing cross breeze, and relatively quiet neighbors. I get a covered parking spot for my car, which is right under the apartment. I think it's the first time I've ever had somewhere I could stick my car. We're right next to a VTA station, so I can just hop it to school, which is great.

I think the best part, however, is that I'm living with my favorite person in the whole world. <3 And it's the little things, like going shopping together, or figuring out what to cook for dinner, or figuring out how to shove all our crap into one closet.

With the hectic move schedule, and all the hubbub that goes along with moving to a new place for the first time, I'm finding I'm not drawing even close to as much as I should. I do a little doodle maybe once a day, if that. I have to kick it up like 10 notches if I ever wanna get in this business, or even just keep up with my friends. It seems like every time I see them they're getting better and more skilled, and I'm not moving at all. D:

Mid-summer times blues, I suppose. Moving on.

I saw Wall-E recently and totally loved it. It's an amazing piece of work, and I'm SO proud of Pixar. They've come so far. :D I found out today that the guy who did the sound effects for the movie also did all the droids and SFX for the Star Wars movies. Cool huh? Also, I wanna get a hold of the soundtrack. Randy Newman is awesome, and I was totally happy to hear Peter Gabriel at the end of the movie.

I still want to see Wanted and the Hulk, and Batman, and Center of the Earth, and basically every other movie that's out/coming out. :<

Oh! And bollocks on me, I totally effing forgot that the WST test was yesterday. A saturday. For some reason, I had it in my head that it was Monday. 25 bucks down the drain, plus I have to reschedule for like, fall sometime. I suck at reading directions. D:


And, as a last note, thanks to Dan, I've had that damn Justice album stuck in my head. The whole thing. All summer. Thanks Dan. :P

Oh, Iron Man. You devilishly handsome, snarky, intelligent, womanizing alcoholic with a glowy heart. How I love you.

Seriously though, I'm totally geeking out about this movie. Everything about it was amazing. xD Strangely, I was caught up for most of the movie going- Holy crap, the storyboards for this must have been awesome! Or man, that must have been a lot of concept art for his armor. Silly art school. What have you done to me?

Man, I could gush on about so many scenes, and little jokes and quirks about the movie, but... I'll refrain, I suppose. Maybe I'll just go see it again. >_>

In other news, I finished a 60+ hour charcoal reversal of this picture. I am SO tired of this picture. Actually, after doing this whole project, I'm sort of in a drawing slump, and I've gotten way behind in my daily journal. >.< I just feel really burnt out about the whole thing. Man, I'm proud of how it turned out though. I had a lot of personal lightbulbs come on during the project. I think it's maybe that fact that's making me not want to draw. I can't draw as well, because I can now see things better than I can draw. I used to be happy with my work- and now nothing is good enough. Learning art is a bummer, lol.

Either that, or I'm just being lazy. >_> Maybe it's a bit of both.

Go see Iron Man!

Personality meme:

I saw immortalis' post on it and wanted to do one. It's very very accurate. :O


My Personality

Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	1
Openness to Experience	72
Agreeableness	5
Conscientiousness	16

You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You lead a leisurely and relaxed life. You would prefer to sit back and smell the roses than indulge in high energy activities. You like the security of tradition, but sometimes have a desire to bend the rules and challenge conventional thinking. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important, however you are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. You take your time when making decisions and will deliberate on all the possible consequences and alternatives.

Take a Personality Test now or view the full Personality Report. LOL @ that neuroticism score. Yup... that's me alright. The worrywart. xD

Finals are coming up. As of right now I have:

-A term paper in Art History due on the 25th.
-A Two-page comic complete with storyboarding, layouts, thumbnails and what-have-you.
-A charcoal reversal project that will take about 50 hours to complete.
-A 3-tone chalk self portrait due Monday.
-A painting pointillism self portrait project due in two weeks.
-On top of all that, I have a sketchbook that I need to draw a page in daily.

All in all, I'm totally overwhelmed.

Totally overwhelmed and I'm totally ecstatic about it.

Man, I love school.

I have to say though, if I didn't have my huge circle of friends to pull me through, I dunno if I'd feel the same way. Yay friends!